I run out of me to give to all the people who need me. I love them all but seriously there are times where the inside of me knows full well there is nothing left for me to give to them but they still need me. What if I can't give anymore right now and I want to go sleep it all off. What if I don't want to help them at the moment by being nice and kind and patient and would love for someone to take care of me. This sort of time sucks.
I am told I need to plan some serious breaks from it all. Elder parents who are scared and tired in their own way of being burdens, losing their independence and their health. Funny how I would love for someone to express concern and care for me and then we turn around and become old people ourselves and fight desperately to not have THAT happen. Such a humble life we live even if we don't want to live humbly.